Day 6: Share something that you struggle with.
Foreword
The first weekend of this month has arrived! Yayyy!
Honestly, I had been thinking yesterday and today, "What do I struggle with?", when the answer was just flat on my face. I don't have much to say this topic either, so I'll just start it right away.
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Something I Struggle With
Up until now, I've been struggling with social awkwardness. It bugs me in life, especially when I want to communicate and express myself, but I can't find myself to do it. And if I do do it, I'd probably make myself look like an idiot in public.
Whenever I'm chosen to go on stage/up in front, whether good or bad, competition or whatnot, I immediately get cold feet. I want to just go up there and do what I ought to do, but my mind keeps forcing me otherwise, despite being confident in myself. Seeing the crowd from up there is just too frightening! Even a crowd of two can send me backing into a corner! And when I am on the stage, my legs can't stop trembling. Maybe that's why I prefer not to participate in activities involving going up on stages. I even forget everything I remembered and stammer while speaking.
One more thing is that I can't bring myself to talk to strangers or acquaintances. I do my best to avoid talking to them or distance myself from the area. If I were to attend a party or a conference, I'd stick to the people I know, glue myself to a far corner, or slip out of the vicinity entirely. I would always ask my friend/family members to talk to them instead because when I do it, I'd smile awkwardly and stay silent. I don't know what to say! And when I know what to say, I say it in a way that is also awkward! I find it much easier to communicate through a screen than in person.
My social awkwardness has also made me reclusive. I tend to keep things to myself and I would only tell my problems to those closest to me. I rarely hang out with my friends outside, fancying staying at home and doing what I do. Besides that, I tend to take some things too personally, causing a far more hurting response from judgmental people. I try to understand what they mean and express it in a correct manner, but even that fails to deliver what I meant. I just can't seem to be able to express myself without being too sentimental or too demanding, thus I prefer being silent.
So, yeah, I'm very much socially awkward. I hope the way I expressed my points above was okay and relatable. I only wish I can speak to people more casually, but my strong self-enthusiasm and self-confidence collapse the moment I start talking. Despite that, I know struggles in life can be overcome with time, age, and experience. Because a little pick-me-up can always lift my mood anytime!
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And that's something that I struggle with up until now. If possible, can anyone of you give me some tips on how to quickly get over this problem of mine? Thanks in advance.
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